Obsessing over my training!!!

It's happening...I have started obsessing over my Ironman training. I do this every time. I look back at where I was at this point (10 weeks out) before my last race and compare the times, numbers, attitude. I do this because I am afraid I am going to suck this time. I do this because I never train for Ironmans the way I should but instead give myself 3-4 months to go from zero to 140.6. I do this because I need to be motivated to continue to train. I do this because I need to know what to expect on race day. I do this so I can find my silver lining and hold onto it until my fitness starts to measurably improve.
So where was I when I was 10 weeks out from IMAZ 07? I was swimming 3000 yards swims. I was running 8 milers but even my short runs were over 10 minute pace. I had done a marathon the month before so I had more endurance but I was slow. I was biking pretty well, but I hadn't had my breakthrough yet (it would come later that month). I was averaging around 120 watts for 50 mile rides. I was mostly grumpy and obsessed with losing weight. I was constantly juggling my schedule and running out of time and missing workouts, but I was doing the best I could.
Where am I now, 10 weeks out from IMAZ 08? I am swimming 2000 yards at an embarrassing pace (M pace for 300 yards today? 1:57/100, uh-huh-embarrassing). My longest run is 4 miles, at about a 10 minute pace. I have no running endurance and my running is not getting any easier. My cycling, thank god for my cycling!!! On my ride last Sunday, I did the first 55 miles or so at a hard pace and averaged 155 watts. After that I bonked due to lack of nutrition and ended up averaging 138 watts for the entire ride 68 mile ride. Speed is about the same, but I am riding in very hilly terrain now instead of on flats in Florida. Plus I am on a road bike instead of a tri bike so I lose speed there as well. What I need to do is find a fast, flat course and do a long ride there so I can see what I can do in my zone 2 watts range. I have a lot of hope that I can have a great bike split this year, even if it ends up being crazy windy like it was last year.
Things could be worse. I think my cycling fitness is going to make all the difference. I just need to be patient and consistent. I am joining a masters class. I know that if I do that, I will drop time from my swim, even though I only have 10 weeks. My swim has the most room for improvement and all it is going to take is some hard work on my part. My running...not much I can do but keep running. It will come along. I will try to lose some weight but I can already see that it is not going to be an easy thing. My appetite has gone through the roof the last 2 weeks! I need a positive, healthy attitude more than I need to lose weight. The attitude is what I want to really focus on, being positive and enjoying this. I do enjoy obsessing over power numbers and swim times and run pace. It's just when I start to take it too seriously that I get in trouble. Or when I use it to define too much of who I am.
I am happy to be training again. It is a wonderful distraction. I'll revisit this at the end of the month and see how things are progressing.